From Almost Doctor to Holistic Healer

My Experience with the Western Medical System and why it is not for me

Hello, my beautiful and abundant beings of pure light and love and divinity. Allow me to introduce myself briefly. My name is Destinie and I am the creator goddess behind Divine Destinie. I don’t believe there are enough words in the world, especially in the English language, to describe who I am, but I at least want to share part of my journey with you today, the part that has propelled me down the path I currently walk.

I have always been a highly sensitive being and from a young age, I could sense the need for me to be a healing presence in this world. I knew that I wanted to help people heal and given the environment I was raised in, I thought western medicine was the answer. I wanted to be a doctor.

One of the influences that strengthened this desire to become a medical professional was that in 2006 my grandfather, Gary Hess, was diagnosed with cancer for the first time. I was only 7 years old, but I remember waiting long hours in the hospital while he was in surgery and pushing him through the hospital hallways in a wheelchair. I also remember him and my mother and brothers crying and I always put on a brave face because I knew someone had to hold the “everything will be okay” energy.

I saw the struggles he experienced firsthand, the cutting away and poisoning of major pieces of his body here and there. This was the start of his 16 year battle with cancer that ended in November 2022 when he transitioned to the other side after holding on long enough to allow each one of his grandchildren to say goodbye to his physical presence one last time. Moments after we all arrived by his bedside at the hospice facility, he took his last breath in this lifetime. This, however, has not severed my connection to him. He is always with me and his story has shaped my own in many ways.

In high school, an organization that was interested in generating support for the public schools of Oregon came to me and asked why I was the promise of Oregon. My response was “I can’t imagine a better way to help people than to find a cure for cancer.” Click here to see my page on the Promise of Oregon's webpage.

In 2017, I started at Oregon State University where I ended up getting my Bachelor of Science degree in BioHealth Sciences. This major was meant to be a streamline into medical school. However, upon graduating, I realized that I needed to take some time off between my undergraduate and my doctoral studies due to a major case of burnout.

I was always top of my class and super motivated to learn (something that sticks with me to this day). I was the co-valedictorian of my high school and I finished my undergraduate education in 3 years instead of the typical 4+ years most people take. On top of that, I was always involved in extracurriculars. In high school, I was MVP of my basketball team 3 years in a row and a state champion in both track (individually in the 800 meters) and cross country (as a team). I also still hold my high school's record time in the 800 meters as of the time I am writing this.

My State Championship Race

My State Championship Medal

These are pictures from my State Championship race in the 800 meters at Historic Hayward Field in TrackTown USA (Eugene, OR) before its major renovation in 2020.

I was what you would consider a high performer and true to those words, I was always performing. I was made to be the best version of myself based on what others expected of me. I lost a lot of my true self during this time, although my essence always managed to shine through in some ways.

Growing up in a small town did not help the matter, especially since I was the daughter of my high school principal and my basketball coach. I was constantly in the public eye, being watched by all my peers and community members. Not all of them had nice things to say. Many of them were laying in wait for me to slip up and since it was not just my reputation that was at risk, but also the reputations of my family, there was a lot of pressure on me to be the perfect, well-behaved girl.

This was extremely hard for me since I am a true, free-spirited rebel, #FUCKTHEMAN bad bitch goddess at heart and I never saw things the way people typically do. However, I learned to hide most of who I was to protect myself and my family.

In college, like far too many young women, I was put on birth control and antidepressants. I was only on them for a month or two, but during that time, I was unable to leave my house. Functioning properly became impossible. Class time would come along and I couldn’t force myself to get up or leave my house. Even if I did manage to get myself to class, I found myself leaving in the middle of the lecture to head back home to the comfort of my bed. I was numb. Unable to feel. Unable to think clearly. All I did was sleep.

Thank God a beautiful soul and one of my best friends, Joseph, was there to knock some sense into me. True to the meaning of his name, “God will give,” Joseph gave me the insight that it was the medications causing me to feel this way. They were blocking me from Source and I was losing more and more of myself every day I took them. They were causing me to slip deeper and deeper into a dissociated state.

Even after I got off of them, the symptoms of dissociation lasted. It would take time for my mind and body to feel the same as before I had started them because my chemical and hormonal systems were out of wack.

It was these years of constantly performing and dissociating from my true self that lead to the extreme burnout that caused me to take time to myself before going on to medical school.

I decided to work with a local ophthalmologist and gain experience in the medical field while I was recovering. However, instead of feeling more aligned with my previously conceived path, working in the medical field exposed me to the harsh truths of the western medical system, big pharma, and the scams that are insurance companies (perhaps I’ll go into more detail on this subject in a future post).

This was also all taking place during the beginning of the 2020 mass control grab and jabs. I was experiencing the truth of the medical system from the inside out and I was mortified. I’m not saying western medicine doesn’t have its place, but I do believe that the way it is currently set up contributes greatly to the mass dis-EASE that the world is currently experiencing.

Due to my unwillingness to allow other people to decide what I do with my own mind and body, I ended up getting put on administrative leave without pay unless I decided to comply with mandates that didn’t feel aligned with who I am. I ended up leaving that job to work as a benefits and billing specialist in the medical field. It was here that I was further educated on to the money grab that the western medical system is.

As much as I appreciate these experiences for what they have taught me and the perspective that I have gained, working in that field was draining my soul. My soul knew there had to be a better way.

A way in which people have more than a quick 15 minute “one size fits all” check-in with their doctors.

A way where you could develop a connection with your provider, be given the space and time to fully express your concerns, and together come up with a sustainable plan to reach your wellness goals.

A way where people would be encouraged to ask questions and do their own research.

A way where people wouldn’t be made to feel stupid by medical professionals for listening to their own bodies, following their intuition, and doing what was aligned for them.

A way where we address the core roots of a problem instead of covering up symptom clusters with medications which often require additional medications to regulate the first medication.

A way that incorporated natural and energetic healing elements.

A way that did not cost people their entire life savings for a treatment that may not make them any better.

Instead of being put on birth control and antidepressants in college, I wish I had had someone to discuss how I was experiencing the world with. Someone who was open minded and had a knowledge of the natural and energetic world.

If I had, I would have been told that I was not depressed, I was just a highly sensitive being and I was tapping into the emotional and energetic fields in a very intense and heightened way. I didn’t know how to control the floods of emotions and energy that were pouring into me and instead of my medical professional guiding me through that, they tried to cover my symptoms with chemical and hormonal medications which lead me to completely dissociate with the natural wave of emotion and energy I had previously been connected to.

And in the case of my grandfather, I wish I had only known what I know now. His life could have been drastically different. However, I do believe everything has its purpose and I’m grateful for the way his situation guided me on this path.

Even though my grandfather had an extremely tough journey, I know that he was connected to the natural and energetic world in a very profound way whether he knew it or not.

It was his love for my mother, his grandchildren, his cat, and the earth that kept him here for 16 years after his diagnosis. My grandfather spent most of his time on the land. He was always growing fruits and veggies and an insane amount of cannabis. He had so much love within him. He was truly one of the most loving beings I’ve encountered, even if he was the most stubborn son of a bitch you’d ever meet. A true Leo.

From seeing all the ways it failed my grandfather, myself, and so many others, I realized the western medical field was not my place, at least not in the way it is currently structured.

As someone who had always been called to energy work, spirituality, the hidden and extra-dimensional things in life, ancient cultures, and nature, I found my true place in the holistic health field. In this field, I have been able to find all the key parts that were missing from western medicine.

I started diving deeper into the wisdom of natural and energetic healing modalities that have been used in so many ancient civilizations across the world. I discovered how our beliefs shape our reality, that we are in control. My views on what dis-EASES are have been completely transformed. I discovered that the cure for cancer that I had wanted to find had been here all along (as well as the cures for all other dis-EASES that so many of us are currently facing).

I am constantly expanding my knowledge of natural and energetic healing and I now provide healing services to many lovely souls that I’ve met along the way. I have finally come into alignment with my most divine path and I am so excited to share my wisdom with the world as I learn more and more every single day.

Thank you all so very much for spending your time getting to know a little more about me and my journey. I am so excited for this path that I am on and can’t wait to see how I am able to assist in the healing of the collective. I also am so excited to connect with more beautiful beings on this journey. If you are interested in any of the services I offer, please click here or feel free to email me at divinedestinie@gmail.com.

With all my love and light,

Destinie

Note: I am by no means saying all medical professionals are bad. I have met and continue to learn from some really incredible people within the industry who have done their own research and practice a wonderful integrative approach. It is the system and the lack of knowledge that most of the providers have in regards to the natural and energetic truths of the world that turned me away from this field. My main point is that we must discern who and what is the right fit for our individual journeys.

Disclaimer: Although I have done and continue to do extensive amounts of research and have a lot of personal experience in this field, I am not a medical professional (yet). This is in no way me providing medical advice. Please consult your TRUSTED medical professionals to determine the correct course of action for your unique journey. I am simply offering my perspective and am by no means telling you what is right for you. Only YOU know what is right for YOU. Trust your intuition and the people you are divinely guided to work with and learn from.